Which way next?

On wandering with no direction in mind

I’ve been real quiet lately, and quite frankly I have needed the quiet.

Today, in the forest with a dear friend, he asked me a question I could not shake. It was a thought on values I wish I could regurgitate here but my mind draws a blank. All I could say was “wow”, on repeat.

Lately, I have been feeling so much awe inspiring beauty, and yet, the pressure of academia pins me down like a wave keeping me under as I wonder when I’ll have my next chance for air.

It’s not overwhelm in a sense of too much, but output on output on output.

Life is fine, chugging along as it does, and March was a month that asked a lot of me, and I pivoted and showed up as life required.

Thoughts on publications arrive, and thoughts on what is being asked of me cross my realm.

I won some amazing acknowledgements, and parts of me died which won’t return.

Literary fiction has been my friend, and I take solace in my community and my journal during these trying times.

I wish I had more to say, but today, I just wanted to show up, check in, and offer a pulse check on March into April.

In April, I wonder:

What do you value?

What have you lost that will not return?

What do you want to see more of this spring?

If anybody wonders, I’m still here, still grateful, and still learning.

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Written under an Aries sun and Capricorn moon, feeling grateful for life’s splendor.