In the start of Fall, I had an uncomfortable experience. The B&B I booked had double booked and was forced to shift very last minute to one of the last available places on the other side of town. Upon entering the new space I immediately knew something was off. It was moldy. As a testament to my foolish optimism I decided to see if I could settle in the space and instead I became sick. Through my dear friends putting together a show for me, I I met a kind person who extended a place to rest, and it made all the difference.
Generosity and the kindness of strangers has been a thought percolating in my mind lately and as the high of the exciting weekend brings me back down to earth the only place I want to land is in my bed, alone.
A new community and a fearless leader of ultimate. Not sure why I wrote that but I feel it can remain here as it speaks resonance.
In October, I fed all the parts. On an excellent day, I started by immersing myself in tarot, then my daughter made me breakfast in bed. I then hunkered down to a few solid hours of studying Portuguese, took a break for a work meeting, listened to French news on the film repertoire of Jean-Luc Godard, studied a bit of Italian, registered to take a class at my local JCC and had Thai for dinner.
With a bit more wind in my sails, I whipped out a dress toile I started last October and made the bodice in a gabardine, and debated whether I really needed another dress, opted on palazzo pants, and spent a solid half hour looking for the pants pattern, could not find it, gave up, and danced to Y2K music. October was a good long day with even longer nights.
I’ll be honest. My brain is very tired, but I found a new word on a Portuguese blog and realized I am a linguaphile. I always knew the usual words around multilingual folks such as myself but I actually take immense pleasure in the actual learning piece of languages. Greek has been calling me to explore the nuances and culture, but I have decided to really refresh and master my strong five before I add another one (we shall see if that stays true in 2023). I am currently a bit under the weather but it’s okay~the slow down and additional sleep has been good for my soul. Feeling pretty proud of my progress thus far.
Bambini Del Mare has been in the back of my mind as I have been wanting to revive it, but let’s be real, I can’t have so many pots on the stove at once. It’s maddening and I need time for my hoooobies. I have a new single I wrote to piano coming your way soon via my YouTube channel called Mercy and I am so so proud of it. There is a music video coming too, would you like to listen to the acoustic version?
Today I am so depleted and yet so full. While the veil is thin I think I will meditate.
All I can think of is oh how I love and adore my friends and family.
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May the magic of the veil cover you with loving grace and kindness,
FF
Written under a Sun in Libra and Scorpio and a Moon in Aquarius feeling like the world is on the right track now.
Listening to:
Thank you all for being here. I am filled with gratitude that my words resonate for you.
p.s. I’m thinking that now may be a nice time to have a partner to tell me ; ‘hey-maybe you shouldn’t have donuts and turkey bacon for dinner.’ In the meantime I’ll keep enjoying that single life to the max.