Recently, I have been on a new type of journey. My dreams have been increasingly intense, as I am in a transitional space between reality and beyond. With this, I realized I am in the process of an ego death, transitioning into becoming a new type of whole. For those who have yet to experience this phenomenon, it feels like one is splitting in two. I am exhausted from the intensity of the energy around me, and unclear on all the answers. For once, I cannot think myself out of anything. I just need to let the process be. For me, letting go of control is hard and ever expansive.
False ideas that I have held onto tightly about myself are washing away, and parts of me are drowning into oblivion. One thing is for sure when one is 10,463 feet above ground the only thing that matters is putting one foot in front of the other so that is what I intend to do. I am letting go of leading from a place of emotional lack. I am letting go of fucking things up based on my preconceived notion that everything will go south (completely fabricated in my mind), manifesting my love relationships’ untimely demise.
My writing is changing, I am changing, and I look forward to showing up to do the work so that you all hear from me more. June was about loving myself for my birthday month, and I spent a lot of energy seeking out holy places of respite, that are quiet and away from the rapid energy of the concrete jungle.
During the year that wasn’t, I wrote voraciously. I have around one hundred new ideas and songs that I need to try to catalog at some point. In considering my 2020 word of the year follow-through, I want to set up my studio to record and release some work from the year that wasn’t, prior, and beyond.
In releasing my new body of work I will take it slowly, one day at a time to ensure the sound is where I want it to be. Playing to the piano has been a breath of fresh air. As of today, the track list for my new album is as follows:
1. Midlife Malaise
2. Virgo
3. Confía En Mi
4. Familiar
5. Sun Sparks/Hearts Intertwined
6. Beneath You
7. Into Your Mist
8. Cobarde
9. Infinite Possibilities
10. Mercy
This may change, or it may stay where it is. Two more tracks Diosa and Je Vais Bien may make it on there, or not. . .
All these songs were written in early June except track one. Lots to do and the wheels are in motion once more. As I am swimming with so many different ideas on how to release all of my material as it duplicates prolifically I am open to hearing from you. How have you been loving yourself lately?
I have been in hiding. Now is the time to step to the light. . .
Fo Fera
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