As we approach a new year more centered around community, I wonder the ways I can show up for both myself, my family, and the world. This week, we have had rain, marvelous rain and I am so thankful that our drought prone area has the opportunity for new sprouts to cover the land.
It doesn’t really feel like the new year yet. I feel like a half awoken bear in the midst of my winter slumber, not ready to emerge or even peek out at what the world has to offer. I do however feel an inkling of excitement for springtime, and the offerings I am planning to share with the world once my energy returns. My creative agni is ablaze with the sound of rain lulling my overactive mind to rest each day and I spend time in the various corners of my psyche. Whether it be exploring ideas for video treatments, envisioning what I will sew into the new year, or working on composing some new songs to share with you all I feel that 2023 will be a year like no other.
Gratitude is still felt and received, and as I keep leveling up towards the life I envisioned for myself as a young child, I can’t help but feel equal parts giddy and equal parts immensely grateful. There is no longer room in my life for the clutches of fear to hold me back from my destiny, I am showing up wholeheartedly for the life that I want and claiming it as my own. As I have seen it in my mind it must exist.
I have yet to think of a word to theme my upcoming year and for now, I will leave it blank as my only driving North star at the moment is connection.
I have felt beyond tired lately and the idea of doing more just seems ridiculous at the moment. As I am gently unlearning all of these unhealthy habits, I invite more space in to simply exist. Growing up in such a go-getter country, we learn that life has no value for resting and actually see it as wasting time. See, for me there is now no such thing as wasting time. I am actively trying to remove that idea from my head. There are only positive experiences, and experiences that offer a perspective to initiate growth albeit beyond uncomfortable at times. Catharsis, as uncomfortable as it is is a journey I must make peace with as a Scorpio ruled human, placed on this on this earth to not simply exist but to expand and grow. So many dominants pushing me to intense revolutionary change, and albeit uncomfortable, it has blessed me with beautiful stories.
Speaking of which, I decided to release my very first vlog which will be arriving sometime before the 8th of January. You will be able to watch it on my YouTube channel here. I am keeping everything consolidated in 2023 so I will be simplifying my use of online platforms.
From the bottom of my heart thank you for being here.
Now to return back to my hermit hole to continue my deep healing thanks to the major transformative energy that the world is receiving right now.
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Written under an Aries moon and a Capricorn sun feeling like I just might have absolutely enough umph in my life to make things finally stand upright.